Saturday, November 05, 2005
I really cannot take it anymore.. I have brooded about it for too long.. KEPT EVERYTHING IN MY HEART FOR TOO LONG!!! WHY LIKE THIS ONE? Today is the first time I cried.. after that day.. I really cannot take it any longer.. I feel like shouting.. feel like crying out loud.. WHY !?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
Just yesterday i thought i had a better chance.. Si Hwee would come back to me.. but why must she do this? I admit.. what i did is worse than what she did.. I dont blame her.. but i really cannot take it anymore.. its all in me.. my heart and my conscience... why did i do such a thing..
and both my didis dun seem to trust me anymore.. i make a firm statement.. i get doubted.. is this my retribution mah? especially you.. you know who you are.. you know me for 6 years already.. am I the sort who will lie over stupid game fact?
I really dun believe in miracles anymore mah..? why did i cry? Si Hwee.. i really need you.. why..? pls give me one more chance?
im quite sure im going crazy.. these days being alone.. I REALLY CAN EXPLODE.. A man cannot cry.. if not how to protect his girlfriend? But i really want to cry now.. but i also want to protect my girlfriend.. is what Si Hwee doing.. just to stop me from having false hopes? IM NOT GIVING UP SO EASILY!!! I WILL SHOW YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE U.. HOW MUCH I REGRET.. HOW I WILL MAKE UP FOR IT.. JUST DUN LEAVE ME PLEASE..
12:43 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
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