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Monday, October 30, 2006
Steaded officially on 27th October 2006 with Fionna.
watched DeathNote and Rob-B-Hood that day.
29th October 2006. Out with Fionna. enjoyed thoroughly.
30th October 2006. Chinese O lvls. went for lunch with her after that. watched DoA. gt alot closer with her after thats.
30th October 2006. 6.13pm. I sensed a difference.
30th October 2006. 8pm. I am at a great loss. I know she loves me alot. I know she won't leave me. I cannot comfirm I 100% won't leave her.. I most likely wouldn't.. but why.. she and I so old le.. why her parents still must object..
8:02 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
Thursday, October 26, 2006
IF TOMORROW IS FRIDAY.. AND I GO FOR A MOVIE. WILL I NEVER SEE YUXUAN AGAIN? ARGH!!
3:39 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
finally Amateur E in pangya.. its a very high rank there..
also dunno i want amat for what.. seems to me however, that i have quite a number of fans also.
miss her << every post must put.. LOL
will start studying.. real one.. must.. Os are so near.. thats all.. bb nite..
OH.. TODAY IS 17th OCTOBER! IM A FREE MAN. story will NEVER be posted.
11:30 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
Saturday, October 14, 2006
i wanna buy her a gift.. will i ever get to see her.. perhaps.. again?
had always believed that school sux.. and school is a waste of time.. kept looking forward till I could choose what i want to do in the morning.
I am quite certain, that many blogs will be littered with the memories of secondary school life. i am no exception.
I didnt turn up for English lesson.. it was not on purpose.. I would have loved to wake up at 6.. and then go down to the bus stop. and to see her for 1 last time.
aiya i also dunno what i want..
my mood now abit.. messy.. cant write an essay-like post for this blog.
its just abit touching. i finally accepted my class.. finally accepted me for what i am now, and no longer dawning on the used-to-be-mervyn. sort of made peace with teachers whom i had grudges against. except diana goh. i will work harder.. after that i could officially call teachers by their name.. and not hear any words of forbiding. and i falsed out smiles.
"One looks back with appreciation to the brilliance of teachers, but with gratitude to those who touched on human feelings".
new maid arrived.. i dun think i really want a maid now leh.. -.-
3:37 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Love her~ her is the one who might be reading this..
the pangya girl will never read my blog.
school sux.. i didnt want to go actually, english and SS.. slept throughout English, chatted throughout SS.. LOL
but after that had a bath.. and decided to go to Jurong Point.. man what a long journey.. 1 hr ++.. almost 1 and a half hrs.. took 52 down.. though it was a direct bus to JP.. was very wrong..
from now on i'll take 852 to WestMall.. and then MRT to JP.. JP rox.. i love that place.. i felt so free.. so happy.. no one knows me.. can look at where i want... can slack.. can lean against the railings.. and no one to judge me or whatsoever.. that feeling really is the best..
on my way there on 52.. saw many places.. including the place i frequent during sec 1.. bukit timah plaza.. will post my secondary sch life after my O lvls.. i also saw NanHua Sec.. not bad.. lol.. at least i know what kind of sch Karen, Clement and YanLing are in..
sms-ed Ning~ so cute~ <3 her ~ =x
now this hr.. starting to miss smsing her le.. phone didnt have batt from 8pm -1 am
searched Bishan Park for Leroy and the rest.. dam stupid.. i decided to go home after almost 1 hr of search.. and guess what? i called him.. they arent at the park yet zz
its fun la.. when i used to live in a condo.. i never was exposed to this kind of life.. each festival becomes of a greater celebration for me.. in the past.. any festival except CNY, Xmas, National Day, they are just a saturday or sunday for me..
From a height, with a loud thud.. i fell onto the floor.. my head.. zz still pain.. and my butt T_T
on the way back.. some of us very chek ark.. but theres another group of people.. who made a big fire for the sake of fun.. and even went to the extent of burning plastics.. wtf? so we arent that bad.. we took our leftover sparklers.. boxes.. and almost anything.. (but we removed all polyethene), and we threw into the fire as we walked past.. those guys were actually trying to extinguish the flame.. but as we threw.. it became bigger.. what i threw made it nicer.. the flame turned from an evil green to a cackling red.. and then back to its orange.. LOL
i wanted to call police nia.. but phone no batt.. those guys heng.. dam kids.. create haze.. tmr PSI really 200 de hua.. dam sian liao..
tired sia =/ still must wash my own clothes.. then i can sleep.. sian..
3:09 AM...i'm thinkin' of you
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
love her love her xD
she rox.. sch rox.. maths rox..
my maths improved.. i dunno why.. after prelim.. its just like.. when i see a question.. it hits me on the head and i just know how to solve.. just like me when i was in p6..
she rox.. i love her xD
sian now no maid.. she left this morning 10am when i was in school.. well my comfort decreased alot.. its true.. no one to shout at.. no one to scold.. when i playing pangya.. and hear plastic bags making noises.. i turn back and i dun see her there.. come back home no one also.. =/ hungry le no one to go buy food... and i gotta wash my own clothes.. quite a hassle.. =/
now going out with Roy.. eat dinner =/ bo bian.. tired leh..
selected to write a speech for graduation ceremony to teacher.. and its my fav teacher, Miss Esther How.. i'll definitely outshine other people one.. may all glory be on Miss How!
hmm kinda late le.. just wanted to blog this to show that im more independent.. my hands will soon become rough and ugly though =( ah well.. im a man.. why shld i even bother? xD
7:35 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
Sunday, October 01, 2006
i miss her.. saw her photo today.. so beautiful.. i miss her more only..
yesterday(29th Sept) was my father's birthday.. went for a celebration.. i feel isolated from my family.. they didnt even notice my disappearance from the table when they sang bday song..
today celebrated my elder brother's birthday.. -.-
i've been really down these 2 days.. maybe tomorrow as well.. i don't want to graduate!!!
for sure.. i have to move house again.. i dun want to stay too far away from her..........
maid will be gone this week.. and i gotta learn how to wash my clothes.. zz.. exams coming soon.. i must do them well.. i must. but why am i still playing..? i dunno.. i miss her.. how can i numb that.. zz
so upset that i went for a jog last night.. end up missing lessons this morning.. or shld i say, Saturday's morning.. >.<.. going to Leroy's at this hour.. ah well.. the end.
3:46 AM...i'm thinkin' of you
I knew Fate wouldn't appear like this.
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