Wednesday, November 02, 2005
My friends say im drifting away from them.. i think so too also now.. i rather be alone in my world of fantasies.. because i really miss Si hwee badly.. i had enough of friends telling me its time to give up.. back then i din really dare to love her.. because all my friends telling me shes not good.. why my friend's words affect me more than the words of the girl i love most?
not really good anymore.. i've lost Si Hwee.. i really dunno how to walk on like this le..
i really had enough of friends.. telling me to let go.. i cant.. i really cannot leh..
my MS also no mood.. how to reach my target of lvl 70 by Thursday??!!
I WANT TO TAKE O LVLS.. i want to fight the battle.. when will i have the courage to tell ppl that im not an O lvl student.. and that i want to take Os badly? when can i tell those people.. that its a bliss to be able to take Os!?!?!? i still very ashamed.. still cant really take the fact i dropped stream..when will i take the fact that i lost Si Hwee??
when will Si Hwee come back to me? when will my dreams.. of after Os.. all my dreams.. when will they come true?
12:51 AM...i'm thinkin' of you
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