Saturday, November 19, 2005
Had not been updating my blog, because I was busy preparing things for Si Hwee, and guess what? she threw everything away =)
I busied myself with this thing, probably boliao to her, but I am certain, if only she was willing to read the letter, or at least give the letter a glance, she will UNDERSTAND ME.. I rushed and rushed, even at 5:40 I was not done, but I rushed a cab down, I did not get to see her at the MRT station.
I waited for her TKD class.. while talking on the phone with Leroy, I saw her.. i dunno why.. but very automatically, i just hung up. I kept asking her to take the letter, why didnt she? anyway the letter did fall into her hands eventually, by the help of her brother, and SH smsed me, that she tore the letter... expected.. if i had produce another letter for her at that time, perhaps she would have read it.. my CDs.. everything.. she throw.. she said they were rubbish.. and holding them, dirtied her hands.. why must she be so harsh? break le must so harsh mah? why must we keep quarreling, exchange vulgarities and curse words.. Si Hwee do you understand now? it is you not willing to give in, not me leh.. I admit I did wrong, GO and read the next letter I prepared for you.. YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHY!!!!! WHY I EXPLODED THAT DAY!
I went down all the way to plaza sing.. to buy those empty CDs with designs.. just to show more sincerity, reminds me of the past.. SH why u never try to understand me? u are a clever girl, but you dun think about how i feel? I remember before we met, I went to plaza sing too.. I was still a cheerful person lor.. knowing you.. is not a very good thing at all.. and i know u feel the same about knowing me.. but I dun regret knowing u.. its not good, but its the best thing of my life..
Anyway.. i went to watch HP and GoF with my friends.. then overnight at Jerald's house.. my first overnight.. in the past.. i did not overnight, because of someone.. am i really happy and contented with my current life? Today is 19th November!!
Ah.. I guess no one reads my blog anymore.. so.. this is probably my last blog post..
12:17 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
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