Friday, December 02, 2005
today this morning.. i slept at 5am.. woke up at 8am zz.. very sleepy le.. now 3:30am.. should know how tired i am..
anyway this morning.. i helped carry some.. God of Wealth, Godness of Mercy, Fu Lu Shou figurines.. to my new house.. a flat in Bishan.. not bad.. designs quite nice.. not as small as i imagined.. the toilet.. still acceptable.. but.. the place hor.. quite far from the lift zz.. i counted.. almost 80 steps+.. my room is a good one.. facing the open field.. facing the city cab place xD.. gonna be really very very very windy.. looked down.. i see the place i used to walk home at midnight.. with the same person on the phone.. accompanying me home..
then the study room.. omg.. its quite eerie leh.. far from the bedrooms.. good thing.. but.. its really eerie.. scarly in the middle of the night.. when i playing.. i see a head float pass :S gonna be scary.. both comps gonna be near each other.. i can transfer items easily now..
it seems so fast.. im not going to stay in a condo anymore.. didnt think it was important in the past.. neither now of coz.. the memories of previous years.. i can let go.. but the events of this year.. really stick so close to my heart.. its hard to change.. i really wish i can reconcile with SH soon.. then i let her have a look at this place... the place i was at when she smsed me.. the computer i was using.. when i gave her the first phonecall.. haha speakin of first phonecall.. i remembered something else.. hee.. actually i wanted to write the letter today.. now.. but im really tired.. and i caught a cold.. 8pm +.. i choked on cold water..
in my heart.. there is another girl le.. or is she really in my heart? i dunno.. the things she say.. really very touching.. i dun deny.. i miss SH.. i cant help myself.. i just keep thinking of SH more now.. i still want to know as much as i can about her.. but its very unnatural now.. part of me really want to let go of everything.. and start my life anew with 'her'.. oh no.. im at a loss again.. what should i do >.<
11:32 AM...i'm thinkin' of you
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