Thursday, December 01, 2005
today.. haha.. early morning my elder brother and maid.. started packing the house le.. then it got me wondering.. i was bathing la.. hmm.. i was thinking.. the thing i probably miss most in this condo.. is probably my toilet.. will the toilet at the flats be clean? will there be bright light shining through the windows? haha these things.. i kept thinking lor.. living in condo really has its own benefit.. but im moving house le T_T din have chance to fulfill one of the things SH and I had planned on in the past.. lolx..
then after that i went to Thomson Plaza POPULAR.. for 2 reasons.. to buy 3 maplestory prepaid cards and.. masking tape.. maplestory prepaid cards.. i used the cash to buy things for *someone*.. to that *someone*, im so so sorry ok? i did something very wrong today..
i lied to that *someone* twice leh.. i said "i be honest with you ok? actually.. i cant love u wholeheartedly.. i love you only 95% =X.. the rest of the 5% spread among my family and SH.. "
this sentence.. lolx.. 2 lies le.. number 1.. feelings cannot be estimated into percentage.. and will never be..
number 2.. its impossible for me to love someone else so deeply in such a short time.. at the very most.. should be same as SH.. how to exceed my feelings for SH in.. too short a time?
therefore.. to that *someone*.. im sry for this.. its something i said without thinking.. din want to apologise to u so.. straightforwardly.. i dunno if the *someone* reads my blog now.. but im quite certain that in the near future.. she will read.. XD.. it may seem like a trivial matter.. but if such a small matter i also can lie to u.. what about in the future? i will tell greater and more serious lies.. i dun want that to happen.. =X
but.. omg.. i didnt choose the wrong person.. her exact reply was : "this kind of thingy takes time".. made me feel guilty..
right now already is december 2nd 4:47 am le.. I am thinking of gongzhu..... the letter.. i still must write.. i still must fulfill my commitment.. i still must keep my promise.. right! back to hunting taurospear for Thorns =D
12:28 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
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