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Tuesday, December 13, 2005
was in a very good mood for blogging.. but just now i got very pissed by my mother.. quarrelled with her.. end up i win.. i demanded for her to apologise.. but she dun want..what a 'role model'
today i want to continue my dedication to Miss Yeo Si Hwee, as i still miss her very much.. many things which i initially wanted to blog about.. i cant remember now.. this blog today was supposed to take up the normal for 5 blogs.. -.-
firstly, let me thank Rena, for being so understanding, that i still miss Si Hwee, thanks for not minding..
i know that Si Hwee and i, together, we will not have any happiness, because both have said many nasty things about each other, thus, it would be very weird if we both got together.. should we get together, both of us will feel ashamed, and may also nurse the grudge.. but as for me.. i know for sure, i wont blame her for what she has said of me.. but the thing that make me still want to be with her, is due to the fact that i strongly believe, she and me will last..
i really miss you alot leh Si Hwee.. its unfair of u not to give me another chance.. how did u forget our promises? yaya ur taste not so bad.. we arent steads.. but why give up on me like this? i only needed abit more time to prove to you.. i have changed now.. let the changed product.. have another chance can? what im trying to mean is.. if i changed because of you, it would be better.. we will be happier.. why after i change.. i dun get the real person i want? i changed for ur sake.. so that u will be happy.. why shld i make others happy?
do you know how i feel these days, was similar to how u felt towards Simon? u talking to friends halfway.. u cried.. i also did the same thing.. i cried earlier today..i keep saying that its a new chapter of my life.. but i cannot get u out of my mind at all.. i still love you.. the fact remains that .. you have rejected me once more..
i keep thinking.. there were so many places we had agreed to visit.. Xrod.. remember him? one of fairylingx' friend on maple.. who owns a lanshop in Yishun.. didnt we agree to visit his lanshop after your Os? i also forgot about it.. but i cried the day i got reminded of it.. so many more things.. we said you would come to Thomson View.. to see the place i made my first phone call to you.. etc.. now that cannot be fulfilled le.. ni yi ran shi wo de zui ai, you are still my most loved..
your current bf.. can bear to leave u at home.. watching TV to kill time..? there are still many things.. ur current bf have not done for you.. he is not a worthy stead.. why did u choose him?
sorry i got agitated.. couldnt control myself.. i still love you as much.. over these months.. i have changed beyond my wildest dreams.. i know that i have understood more things about life.. from an ignorant little kid.. to what i am now.. i dare say that my level of maturity has exceeded yours..
i really despo for you bah.. if given another chance.. stead or friends.. only way.. i still will choose stead.. because i always believe we are both meant to be..
now i dun stand a chance le.. but i still miss you deeply.. cried earlier when i heard the song of Prince of Egypt.. i believed in miracles for how long le.. but where are the miracles? i never gave up so much hope until now..
sorry to other people..
i'd add here to mayi.. if she reads of course.. i dun like u.. cause u dun let me have SH in my heart.. its 100% not possible at all.. sry but i really cant accept one.. who stops me from missing SH..
tomorrow, or later in the day.. i will blog about my life and happenings of these days.. from 9th December till today =).. now is 7:53 AM.. going sleep.. hope later get to see Si Hwee at SIMLIM SQ..
2:13 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
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