Wednesday, February 08, 2006
today went out with Yu Min.. love her.. =D
i felt very natural.. very sweet.. never had this kind of feeling when i went out with other girls.. i felt that she and me were really meant to be.. because its natural.. we did not act.. we did not force anything.. we just let things take its own course.. we never control any anger.. we never fake any smile.. one word best describes it : natural..
SH.. will be marrying me on Maple.. to be honest.. i really dont want to.. i told SH i wanted to marry her.. when i came home after sch.. after that.. when i was with Yu Min.. SH smsed and asked if i really wan her to marry me.. YUMIN WAS THE ONE WHO REPLIED "OK.." LOL.. zz not me lo.. but cant be helped.. i got 1 yr commitment to SH.. whatever she says i must listen.. but come to think of it.. she and i wont be happy together de la.. she probably thinks is.. i wil be happy.. if i say i dun want marry her.. she also wont be hurt or sad.. but if shes disappointed or something.. well.. she disappointed me many times before.. i decided le.. i must marry who i really want.. even though only Maple.. but i take it seriously.. because i really love my Yu Min..
sch's a drag.. now only JY reads my blog ar? lol..
11:30 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
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