Sunday, February 12, 2006
i saw a caterpillar.. at the tip of a very fine line.. hanging and dangling from a tree.. when i was about to go home after breakfast.. i was very upset.. but i brighten up.. thinking that she and me.. will be alright in the afternoon..
my first thought.. was that the caterpillar was held captive by a horrid spider.. i wanted to free the caterpillar.. i used my hand.. flat.. to try to break the 'web'..
it was sticky.. but it felt.. smooth.. i saw that the web was so shiny sia... happily.. i freed the caterpillar.. i carried on walking home.. i saw another caterpillar at another tree.. 2 spiders held both caterpillars with 2 different webs..? who can guess whats going on..? dont read on.. think by urself first..
i realised.. the caterpillar was spinning silk.. going into hibernation or something.. to grow up.. and become a butterfly eventually.. i stopped that beautiful dream of the caterpillar.. i just wanted to help.. i thought it would have been better.. same goes for Yu Min.. Yu Min.. u think that u are helping me.. u think i like Si Hwee still.. I DONT.. i no longer love her.. i hope u understand she and i shared a very special relationship.. u are not helping me.. not saving my happiness.. and u destroyed my most beautiful dream..
darn blog.. i know whats going on yumin.. u read a post of how many months ago.. i know when we went out.. i kept trying to kiss u and hug u.. thats why u think.. i am using u to do what i never did with SH.. its not.. u really dun understand how much i loved u..
and now.. the maple level i kept for 2-3 weeks.. my friend helped me lvl.. i was at 99.97%.. u noe how it felt? i was furious.. that guy was a very good friend of mine..
i waited for u.. u really expected me to lvl all 100% in ur acnt for u..? how could it be.. i tried to get u to be interested in maple again.. what have u been doing that makes me so hurt.. yumin.. u will never understand.. u need me alot.. do think it through..
1:13 PM...i'm thinkin' of you
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