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Saturday, June 17, 2006
6 months ago, I left my heart at admiralty..
today i went to retrieve it.
i have led 6 months of a life of a fucking heartless beast. i've hurt 2 girls and i've not realised. where did my conscience and self-understanding go?
when i reached admiralty, it wasn't even the place i wanted to be.. i no longer yearned to be there.. the place i wanted to be, was in woodlands. somehow now i feel kinda attached to admiralty still. but i told myself good bye to admiralty.. i wont go back there.
the love i had for sihwee has ended. 8 months.. after 8 months i can finally tell myself, i no longer love sihwee. maybe i still love yumin(very minimal). i will always have abit of feelings for my EXs. thats said in my friendster =) im a sentimental person. i might miss sihwee, but really no love le. and its because of Wen. Wen is a very special girl in my life. all follys in my life, all mistakes i have made, this special girl have made me learnt alot of precious lessons. I really love her. i finally dare say i dont love sihwee anymore, its because this girl has really replaced her in my heart.
I have hurt Wen.. heartless me.. chances of us patching, is very very low. i dun think she has feelings for me anymore.. my fault.. my bad.. its all too late.. i realised my lesson too late.. its only after i dio hacked.. had more time to care about my surroundings, that i realised.. Wen loved me more than she and i imagined.. to think i believed her when she told me she didnt have feelings for me right from the start. If that was the case, she would not have shed a river of tears over me.
after my departure from Admiralty, i went to Suntec to meet Leroy, Tim, Alex, Jesslyn, Edwin and Jerald. i can say i was pretty unwilling to be there.. i wanted to be at woodlands.. admiralty and woodlands are neighbours and i couldnt go due to the time constrain.
we then went to funan there for 7-11.. i was thinking of yumin haha.. we did met there once.
then we headed for esplanade.. and we chatted there.. Tim talked about women with their satisfaction for their love lives.. seemed that Italian women are most satisfied. the focal point here is.. Singapore men are lousy lovers.. i think and think.. ya.. the way i love Wen.. its wrong >.>
Wen said before she would be contented if i were to be her sweet darling everyday.. when i read that sentence.. my heart melt.. my head hung. so ashamed of my actions..
Tim also told us some sad story of himself.. haiz =/ but i did learn things.. his jokes also very funny.. Tim is a erm.. 21-24 yr old.. dunno how old luh.. face looks like below 18.. very strong muscles and very fit.. though if not flexed.. rather flabby.. he walks to work everyday.. 45 mins walk.. 3000 sit-up a week =/ not bad har? lol.. he buy cigarrettes or enter a pub.. must have ID =x
now on MS.. quite sad.. dun wanna tell any friends.. i saw 10 att Dark Emperor and 10 str icarus cape 2.. the 2 godly items i was eying.. if only i didnt get hacked.. i would have bought them and reduced my dex le.. now must waste $110.. =/
Missing Wen.. wondering how's her fever.. and if she's enjoying herself. but i doubt she misses me anyway.. haiz.. why shld i bother.. maybe the Cindy who tagged me is right.. i shld start trying to forget her.
5:32 AM...i'm thinkin' of you
I knew Fate wouldn't appear like this.
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I wish for a better tomorrow!
I wish for peace.